Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Singing hallelujah with a fear in your heart

Music: My Heart is an Apple ; The Arcade Fire
"Alice died in the night"

Hot piece of the day:

David Duchovny, aka Hank Moody on the set of Californication, my favourite TV series since the last 10 weeks. If you ignore all the porn scenes, it's really a very tragic show about a middle aged guy trying to get his life (his ex-girlfriend, daughter, and his career) back on track, but he's proud and stubborn and hard-headed, yet so vulnerable at the same time. oh it's great. Best script in a while.

I've been victim of really bad writer's block, I've been reduced to prying off random keys from my laptop keyboard to 'check' if there's any dirt/debris/food trapped under them, and then pushing them back in. I've been having trouble sleeping, waking up many times at night result of bad dreams, and then having grumpy days in school, where i can be in class or walking to class and suddenly have these overwhelming bouts of unhappiness. I can't wait for the next 3 weeks to be over. I've been feeling over-anxious and down lately and i haven't the slightest clue why everything's affecting me so badly. Argh. Least i could have would be some support.

I'll admit, I'm full of shit.
that's how i know i love you,
that's how i know i trust you.
You're not sure, if there's a right or wrong,
but it feels like there is,
when i treat you like this.
I go outside..

Texas, i won't come home.
not even if you call,
can't hear you at all.
I can't explain why it's a sin,
state i'm living in,
i just feel so tired.

My mouth is full, your heart is an apple.
Your mouth is full, my heart is an apple.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

i miss you x

Mich said...

omg jess!!
i watch that too, and yeah the porn bits are a bit extreme but dont you think he completely suits the role and the bitchface daughter of the other guy is SO UGLY AND PUG LIKE.

plus i really like the filler music do you know where i can find it, you know the really upbeat one?